hmmm..
Hi blog. guess what? I'm at home now :)
wanna know why? bcuz i have this disease called somewhat like 'chiken pox' plus 'kayap' _,_ and it was sooo itchy. there were red spots everywhere at my body. and bcuz of that i need to stay home to avoid any infection from happening. We don't want this disease to get spread right?
anyway, it's near February now, and lots of the form 4 students are gone :'( as they went to another school. i really really hate this. especially when the one who wants to move out is my bestfriend, Fnmt_290700. It's unfair maaa~ she got this school called Seremban Science School Girl and was talking non-stop about it. whenever i heard it ,i would get upset and starts throwing tantrums _,_ i really hate the idea of her going out to another school. i really can't accept it.
sometimes i would think that she doesn't want to be my friend anymore, and maybe it was bcuz i was ugly plus annoying or something. like F**k i was freaking upset with her. sometimes, i also thought, maybe if i was dead... no one really even cares? right?
cuz everytime i was not with her she doesn't even look disturbed by it, but if she's not with me i would try to find her and even though i was laughing or something at the moment. i don't know why... but i know we are becoming more distant day by day.. is there something wrong?
and i really hate myself for feeling like this. i'm just afraid that she would forget me when she was in another school.. well, she is friendly and talkative.. that's what i'm afraid of. she doesn't even like to reply my messages and hmm.. that disturb me too.. and she also wants to change her wattpad username... how am i suppose to find her next time?
Ya Allah, pliss make her change her mind...and pliss make her stay.
TT^TT *crying soundly*
